a year ago

It's been a year and a month since moving back home. I still feel sad for leaving my friends. It's odd to think I've moved back and I was thinking I'd see my friends who lived in my home state but as being a new mother. I haven't prioritized it at all. At first I ran into a few old friends around town and we talked about hanging out but it's been months and nothing. It may have to do with the fact that I don't have a phone and not driving but I tried once and it didn't pan out. I've always been a homebody and slightly anti-social but lately I've been missing my friends.  I figured I would be overjoyed to spend time with old best friends since we kept in touch over the 3 years I was living in Oregon but nah. I haven't spoken to any of them but for a handful of times since being back. I actually haven't spoken to one friend at all even though I'd still consider her best friend. Sometimes, I suck about that I'm sure a few people could relate. I'm a going to be a lot more proactive about. In honesty I miss my friends I made from college I've spoken to them a lot more. Not enough I think but I find myself thinking that they don't want to talk to me cause well I'm a mother now while they still go to college parties and I'm basically a stay at home mom. I can't begin to thank my mother and sisters for supporting me.

Will be going now as my room is a mess and my son walking and grabbing clothes and throwing it everywhere doesn't help.